Journey well into the next…

anniversary party
For their 50th anniversary, 2009

My Auntie Annie died this morning.

My parents called me early, while I was getting ready for work. I didn’t hear the phone and saw the voicemail, listened, took a moment, then called them. They told me that Auntie died early that morning. My sister already knew. I thought of my cousin Bev, Auntie Annie’s youngest. What do I say to her to express the utter sadness enveloping me? I could only offer my love and support. I’m always at a loss at these moments.

Do I find comfort in knowing Auntie is in a better place, no longer in pain, no longer suffering? Yes, I find a little comfort in that. I never want anyone, especially my loved ones, to suffer. Do I find comfort in knowing she was well loved by her husband and children and extended family? Yes, I do find comfort in that. She and my uncle were inseparable, the example of a couple who loved each other through all their long years together. They were, in my eyes, two halves of a whole and probably the sweetest couple I have ever had the privilege to know and love.

But I am sad, from so deep in my heart. My auntie was gentle and sweet and delicate, generous and loving, and ever always a lady. She always treated us with kindness. She and my uncle moved out to Las Vegas years ago so we only saw them here and there since then but it was always lovely when they visited. I cannot even imagine what my uncle must be feeling. He spent over fifty years with her and now she’s gone. What does that do to you? I don’t know. I don’t even want to imagine it. And my cousins! My aunt and uncle raised three wonderful and unique people and I can’t even fathom what they’re feeling and thinking.

My love and heart go to my uncle and my cousins. I really do never know what to say and sometimes all I can do is listen, say I love you, and remember always with love.

Auntie Annie, thank you for always being so sweet and lovely. I know you will be so missed and I hope you know you were so very loved.

Journey well into the next…