was the darkness better

was the darkness better
did it call to you
turn your heart against love
what you knew
what you felt
was the silence so enticing
did it reach for you
bring you such comfort
in its promise
in its finality
was this the only way
did it banish all else
the clawing pain
the constant suffering
was it worth this step
did nothing else matter
just the darkness
just the silence

There are things in the world I still don’t understand…