love with grace

Love with Grace

When I close my eyes
I see the smile on your face
And wonder
How could I walk away
From love with grace

When I dream at nightfall
I’m back in this place
Filled up with such yearning
Needing love with grace

I know I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

When I open my eyes
To the morning’s crazy pace
I stop
Just for a moment
Waiting for love with grace

When I take a break from the day
I want to leave without a trace
Find my way back to you
My sweet love with grace

I know I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

But will you take me back
In that time and space
Will you let me declare
My love with grace

I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

Strike Back – Sully

I’ve been slacking on my Strike Back re-watching of US season one. I want to do my screencaps of that season and then I will have done all three US seasons! Of course, I’m the only one who’s been enjoying the screencaps besides the random ones I post publicly. Am I really selfish that way? LOL

The above poem belongs to the latest story I’m writing (not so coincidentally called Love with Grace). It’s really supposed to be a song (does it read like it could be a song?) but as I am not a musician, I can only do the lyrics part of it. I rarely name my poems but I did name this one because it is a song. ;)

My Listworthy Ed Quinn post has gotten some love this week. It was Ed’s birthday this week (the 26th) and as a little reminder, I re-posted the link and he consequently re-tweeted it and it also appeared on his Facebook page. I got a super sweet compliment about it and even though it’s two years old, it’s nice to know it still reads well enough. :) Whew!

opened Spotify just to listen to Sam Hunt

I’ve been listening to Sam Hunt on repeat-shuffle. It’s borderline disturbing how much I’m listening to him but I’m all about embracing the crazy at the moment. Besides, it’s helping with the aforementioned story, Love with Grace. ;) I keep mentioning Sam on twitter and now a bit more on Facebook. When I first started on twitter, I got follows from up and coming country artists. I followed back a few. And now I’m getting likes on instagram for the couple of Sam related pics I’ve posted… I keep hoping for one like or RT or even a reply from him on twitter but so far nothing. And I know I’m foolish for wanting that second of attention but I’ve been previously SPOILED by other folks on twitter, so this is a new feeling. I know I need to dial it down because heaven forbid I get blocked (yes, I’m still bitter about being blocked from that one twitter account). But I really do enjoy Sam Hunt’s music and I do think it’s that good. He’s a perfect blend of country, R&B, and pop for someone like me because even though he is a bit younger, I feel like I get what he’s doing with his music and I definitely appreciate it. He has the country comfort, the sexy R&B swagger, and the sassy pop in his sound and I LOVE IT. It’s just weird to start on a new artist right when he’s in the middle of his rise. I like catching them right before they hit it big. LOL I know, I’m weird.

Mr. Leonard Nimoy’s last tweet

I am still quite affected by Mr. Nimoy’s passing. His last words on twitter are almost a comfort. Did he know his last moments were upon him? Was this his last way of comfort for us?


how do you explain

how do you explain
the breath
the ember
the spark
the feeling
of belonging
to this
how do you explain
the impact
the joy
the gratitude
while knowing
there are no words

Leonard Nimoy died today. When I read the news, I wanted to cry. But now I’ve held the tears in too long and they merely choke me a bit while my heart is heavy.

There are better words out there than anything I can even try at the moment. Find them because they are all true. As a Star Trek fan, I can only ever be grateful for Mr. Spock and thereby the man who portrayed him.

Journey well to the next, Mr. Nimoy. May we all be so lucky to Live Long and Prosper as you did…

drift in this

needing this
feeling this
being this
so overwhelmed
leave me
lost in this
let me
drown in this
let me
drift in this
ever willingly

Sully, Strike Back

It’s awesome when you’re near the end of writing one story and two more stories decide they want to start NOW. What the heck?! But I’m no complaining. I like that I’m not wondering what to write next. :)

Tonight is the Academy Awards and I’m NOT watching it. Not protesting or anything, just don’t feel like it since hubby isn’t home. We usually watch together and make our picks but we totally forgot to do that this year. Oh well!

the music keeping time

when it’s your voice
when it’s your words
weaving a spell
I can’t escape
winding me up
so I can’t leave
when it’s the rise
when it’s the fall
the music keeping time
embracing me
trapping me
so I won’t leave
when it’s a dream
when it’s a fire
promising just the moment
I can’t refuse
seducing me
so I don’t leave

Sully – Strike Back

So I’ve been mostly only playing Sam Hunt’s MONTEVALLO these couple of days. I think it’s safe to say I’m just a tiny bit obsessed at this point. I can’t even really tell if I’ve “discovered” the album at the right time or if it’s actually good. I have no way to gauge it because my musical tastes are quite eclectic. My reaction to the music is best described as visceral. It’s his voice, it’s the words, it’s the beat of the music. I love when music pulls from deep inside and makes you feel.

My story is at the point where I should probably end it but I’m liking my characters too much at the moment. LOL I need to wind it down and then go back and do some revising. Someday? And I already have my next story waiting in the wings! Maybe one day all this writing will be released for others to enjoy. ;)

do you think it’s easy

do you think it’s easy
pining this away
locking away my heart
pretending I’m okay
whenever I hear your name
do you think it’s easy
hating you
loving you
harboring this longing
from prying eyes
do you think it’s easy
knowing this truth
believing your lies
taking me
breaking me
do you think it’s easy
laughing this way
raging this way
knowing I’m not okay
whenever I hear your name
it’s just not that easy

Sully in Cut Snake

So now that I don’t write here everyday, I feel compelled to write longer posts when I do write. So lucky you, readers mine! (Do I have more than one reader? Maybe, who knows.)

Let’s talk music!

Sam Hunt – MONTEVALLO – I heard his song “Take Your Time” on the radio. THE RADIO. Yes, sometimes I inadvertently listen to the radio because the hubby gets tired of my CD mix in the car. So this song comes on and it’s interesting enough for me to Shazam and lo, it’s someone called Sam Hunt. The song was playing on a country station even though it doesn’t quite sound country but I’m not one of those blowhards who thinks country should only sound a certain way (as seems apparent by a couple of reviews I’ve read AFTER I’ve fallen for the album) so I thought, hmmm, new guy? I found the album, MONTEVALLO, and took a listen and then another and then another and by that third spin, I knew I was hooked… The songs skew slightly for the younger folks but I don’t mind since he’s a young man and it’s appropriate for him to sing those kinds of songs. (As opposed to the crap my once favorite group decided to release a couple of years back that just sounded like they were trying way too hard. coughNKOTBcough) Plus there’s enough of a “universal” message in his songs to appeal to a wide variety of people. Or I just like all kinds of different music… The label of “country” is a little misleading because there’s not a lot of twang in the songs and singing about small towns doesn’t make the music automatically country. Perhaps he could be categorized as pop-country? I don’t know. I don’t really care. I simply really like the album beyond reason. It’s catchy, it’s sexy, and it’s slick. Maybe I’m listening to it at the right time but I am hooked. Plus he has a nice voice and a way with words and who doesn’t like that in music? ;)


Henry Cavill in The Man from U.N.C.L.E.

The trailer for The Man from U.N.C.L.E. came out this past week. HENRY CAVILL!!! He looks so dashing! And his accent made me giggle a little but it goes with the whole period of the movie, I suppose, and he’s damn adorable. It looks like a fun movie and I cannot wait to see it! Oh, and Armie Hammer is pretty cute too. ;)

50 Shades of Grey – I’m glad this movie is out now. And no, I AM NOT GOING TO SEE IT. Well, I’ll eventually subject myself to it when it’s on the movie channels or something because this is what I will do for Jamie Dornan. The reason I’m glad it’s out is because then we can stop hearing about it! Don’t get me wrong, I LOVED all the press and seeing pictures of Jamie and reading some of the interviews. I just don’t give a flying f**k about the movie (or the books, for that matter). I’m all for sex and romance and sexy romance and could maybe even try reading some of the more unconventional stuff out there but this series has never appealed to me. Sorry loves, but it’s certainly not my cup of tea. And fantastic for all those folks who love the books and watched the movie. More power to you. Reading is always something I will advocate and if more people read because of those books, huzzah! I myself found it most difficult to read the first chapter of the first book. In fact, I don’t think I got through the first chapter!… As for the movie, if you come away disappointed by Jamie Dornan’s performance (I’ve read some mixed reviews on him), PLEASE GO WATCH THE FALL. He is BRILLIANT in the show and even though he’s a serial killer in it, you just can’t stop watching him. Loving a character and loathing his character is such an uncomfortable combination but he plays it so well and the show is FANTASTIC. Well written, well acted, and so worth the binge watching. GO WATCH THE FALL!

iPhone 6 Plus!

my phone is so much bigger than my iPod

I’ve had my phone for over a week. Here are my impressions…

  • Size – It’s HUGE! But it hasn’t taken long for me to get used to the size. Yes, it’s obscenely large but I don’t mind. It’s great for reading emails and messages and playing games and watching videos. Oh, and the screencaps are larger! This might mean that I go back and re-screencap Strike Back. Maybe. ;)
  • Battery – Ahhhh, how impressed am I with the battery? VERY IMPRESSED. I can, with only a slight bit of effort, go a whole work day without charging the phone. My previous phone sported a mophie and by the end of my time with it, I needed that mophie. The iPhone 6 Plus performs quite decently battery wise. I think I’d be considered nearly a power user because of all the notifications I use. And then if I start playing on the phone, look out! But this phone doesn’t make me feel antsy regarding the battery, which is awesome. The test will be when we go out somewhere without easy means of recharging. ;)
  • Camera – The camera takes great pictures, of course. I can’t believe I just said that but it’s true. My phone takes great pictures. LOL I’ve actually been pretty impressed with the iPhone cameras since the 4S. It’s quick, it’s easy and the pictures turn out great. I love using third party apps too (can’t stop buying the Hipstamatic paks!) to enhance my pictures. :)
  • Calls – Now this is where it’s a bit awkward. Taking calls is just weird with such a big phone and for some reason I’m having an interesting time trying to figure out how to hold it to my face and hear my caller. If I know it’s going to be a longer conversation, then I pop in my earbuds and all is well. Otherwise, it’s just interesting…

Apple makes great phones and though I’ll never be satisfied with the lack of customization, I’ve pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I am an iPhone user. But that doesn’t mean I don’t see the benefits to other operating systems, especially Android. It just means that I like how my phone just works on all levels.


it’s turned into a novella because I haven’t even gotten to the end yet…

Still working on my latest story. I think I’m near the end. It needs more work though. I still don’t really know what the main female character does for a living and there’s a bit of inconsistency in some of the timeline from conversations in the beginning. Otherwise, I LOVE my characters. They’re a lot of fun. :) Maybe I’ll even let more people read it when it’s finished.

Henry once more

let your heart guide your path

when the nights are bleak
when the stars are bright
with the moon’s silver glow
casting the only light
fall deep into your dreams
close your eyes to the world
let your heart guide your path
the possibilities will unfurl
when the morning breaks through
when the dreams fade away
open your eyes to the world
face the adventure of the day

my Strike Back lads – Philip Winchester & Sullivan Stapleton

I can’t remember that last time I tried to rhyme my poem. Fun! ;)

I am seriously digging not writing here everyday. But just because I don’t blog everyday doesn’t mean I don’t write everyday because I do! I’ve been working on a short story that wants to turn into a novella. The usual kind of story from me– contemporary romance. I can’t seem to stop writing it and so I’m just going with the flow. I do adore my characters, as I should. Because if I don’t love them, why would anyone else? ;)

Work has been BUSY this week because the Open Enrollment for INTRA-district requests has opened. JOY! I do appreciate the enthusiasm by the parents who submit their requests. I have to remember that my usual spiel might be repetitive to me but not to them. So it’s a definite exercise in patience. :)

Phone box
this box is shaped like a brick!

Why yes, that’s an iPhone box. Specifically a box for the iPhone 6 Plus. The phone is HUGE! But wow, I am enjoying it so far! Got it yesterday after work, braving the wind and the rain to visit the Walnut Creek Apple Store. Oh the things we do for technology. I have a case on its way because even though I like my phones naked (the 5S was SO PRETTY out of its case), I know that with this obscenely large phone, I need some protection! It does fit in my wristlet, which was a nice surprise. LOL

clam chowder aka the first pic taken on my new phone

I’m sure I’ll have more to say about the phone in the coming days. :) I will miss my 5S (it was SO PRETTY!) but I really do like this new phone a lot already. I was never one to really do much phone stuff one handed so having a bigger phone doesn’t affect me in that way even though I do have to adjust to the new size. I hope the battery is decent because as much as I loved my Mophie, getting one for the 6 Plus would make the phone even BIGGER and I don’t know how much bigger I can handle in my hand.


I also look forward to putting the camera through the paces. I’ve heard good things about it and I’m ready to test it! :)

maybe we could stay

maybe we could stay
letting the world disappear
here in the silence

Sully – Strike Back

Today marks the 16th anniversary of one of my favorite moments in the whole world– the pic of me with Dean O’Gorman, Ryan Gosling, and Joel Tobeck!

santa monica 1999
Dean, me, Ryan, Joel – 24 January 1999 – Santa Monica

This photo is from my camera but a couple of weeks ago I had used a different version for my Thursday Throwback photo on twitter. Because I had tagged Joel, Dean, and Ryan, two of them saw my tweet and re-tweeted it, causing a lovely swell of faves and RTs. As of this writing, my tweet has been favorited 442 times and retweeted 132 times. THANK YOU JOEL & DEAN!!! :D

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO William Gregory Lee!!! Not sure what he’s doing these days but if he happens upon this post, I just want to say I miss you, still adore you, and hope all is well! Oh, and drop me a line sometime! ;)

Crossing Lines – season 2 – We finally finished watching the second season of Crossing Lines. Without spoilers, I will say that I enjoyed all the location shots, the writing, the acting, the plots. It was interesting and enlightening some of the character background that was explored. The season ended with a cliffhanger and I hope it gets another season because there are way too many loose ends!

let me sit here

let me sit here
darkness in the mist
breathe the wet chill
the sky unseen
the sun too distant
the breeze a mere tickle
let me sit here
silence in the gray
the edges soft
the colors stark
where time and space collide
near to nothing

Sully – Strike Back

The Fall – series 2
We binged watched the second series of The Fall. I liked it, of course. Gillian Anderson was incredible again and Jamie Dornan was downright amazing. GO WATCH IT!!! I wish I could say more but I’m not the spoiler type. But I will post a screencap:

Jamie Dornan in The Fall

300 Rise of an Empire – Watched this again yesterday. I keep wondering when I’ll stop but I don’t want to stop so there it is. Here’s something new I noticed in this umpteenth viewing – Sully’s beard isn’t quite as consistent as it should be throughout the movie. Maybe I’m not getting the way time is passing but sometimes his beard is super full and other times it’s a bit more trim.

as Themistokles

And truth be told, I noticed Jack O’Connell’s character from the beginning but I knew he was young so you know, didn’t want to notice him “that way.” And I still don’t although I can see why he’d be noticed. ;) If that makes sense.

Jack O’Connell as Calisto