Happy Thanksgiving!

To my family and friends, I am so thankful you are part of my life. Even if you’re far away, please know that I am thinking of you with love and joy and gratitude for all that we have shared and what we continue to share… <3

let me tell you why I’m doing #NaNoWriMo2014 @NaNoWriMo

let me tell you why
voices in my head demand
their stories be told

the “cover” to my upcoming NaNoWriMo novel

It’s nearly time for National Novel Writing Month. I already have the story in mind and have actually done some “pre-writing” (aka word count cheating). However many words I’ve I already written will just be bonus to the novel. I plan on writing 50,000 for November so my novel could end up being nearly 60,000 words. Awesome!

Listworthy: Sullivan Stapleton


name: Sullivan Stapleton
DOB: 14 June 1977
height: 6’1”
degree of separation: 1 (Ryan Gosling => me!)
my list or yours: mine

First sighting: Strike Back but very oddly enough my trigger moment was Gangster Squad.

Oh Sully. I’m not going to lie, it took awhile for him to get under my skin. When we started watching Strike Back, Philip Winchester was the draw for me (if I had to pick a person of focus on the show). I liked Michael “By-the-Book” Stonebridge more than I liked Damien “fly-by-the-seat-of-his-pants” Scott. But it didn’t take long for me to like Damien Scott. He turned on all the right triggers for me. I really do love the Damien character but I wasn’t sure for the longest time if that affection extended to his portrayer.

tell me again

tell me
again why
you can’t stay
leaving is the
only way to

Sullivan Stapleton in Gangster Squad

In a week I will be in the throes of National Novel Writing Month. Glorious! Yes, I am looking forward to spending most of my free waking hours writing a novel that may never be read but by save a few lucky (?) souls. Where will my characters take me? We shall see.

Now I must look over my next post and then hit “publish.” :)

somewhere close temptation awaits

poem #1
you think it’s easy
pretending not to feel this
longing deep inside

poem #2
do you feel my breath
the promise in my whispers
warm against your skin

poem #3
won’t you let me go
release me from this darkness
these ashes of love

poem #4
when you close your eyes
just reach out and take my hand
dream along with me

poem #5
somewhere close
passion unbidden
longing impatient
ever constant
this desire
open and beckoning
needing release

the Strike Back boys as the G2 lockscreen

I’ve been “pre-writing” my National Novel Writing Month novel. It just means I’m cheating a bit but let’s just go with me getting to know my characters by writing some of their scenes. I know I shouldn’t but there’s only so much outline writing I can do. My characters are demanding release!

Sully as Yuri in an episode of Rush

I’ve been working on my next Listworthy post to keep me distracted from my NaNoWriMo. Of course, the subject of my Listworthy also plays the male character of my story. So not sure if the distraction is actually working. LOL I’m hoping to get the post out this weekend. We shall see.

a pitcher in the World Series

The World Series is tied. Good for them! And my interest sparks a bit when that young pitcher is on the mound. Okay, so I’m “smitten” as someone mentioned. ;) I think he just reminds me of the times I loved those other pitchers I loved back in the day. I’m reminded how much I just love pitchers! LOL

Henry Cavill and a baby

And how cute is that? Every pic I see of him with that baby just makes me melt. Ye gods! LOL

nothing amiss

so sweet yet
in the air
an instant later
nothing amiss

Sullivan Stapleton – Strike Back

I’m in a Sully mood. :)

a little broken inside

maybe I am just
a little broken inside
waiting here for you

The Strike Back boys – Sullivan Stapleton & Philip Winchester

I started watching Jekyll this weekend on Netflix. I’m on episode 5 but I’ve had to stop watching. I guess I’ll finish it next weekend? (It’s six eps but in case the hubby wants to watch it, I don’t want to finish watching it if he hasn’t see the previous eps.)

Oh Henry Cavill, why must you look so awesome in all the fan pics that get posted?! It’s just not right. And why can’t I run into you and take a picture with you?

And Taylor Kitsch, it’s nice seeing you out and about as well. Now when’s your gig?!

Michael J. Bassett posted a pic from the Strike Back set. Bummer neither of the boys was in it. But can’t complain, it’s nice to see something from set.

I’ve already gussied up my Man Crush Monday pic for tomorrow. It’s still two fellas. I don’t think I’ll ever just feature just one fella for MCM. ;)

love these guys!!!

Yesterday I was at Creation’s site reading about the next Xena convention. It’s being touted as the THE Official XENA Convention: The 20th Anniversary Celebration THE ABSOLUTE FINAL OFFICIAL XENA CONVENTION. There was a tiny part of me that wanted to go, to be part of the whole Xena fandom once more. But I won’t go. At this point it would take ALL my fellas attending for me to even seriously consider it. As it is, NONE of my fellas are currently on the guest list. No Erik Thomson (not that he’s ever attended), Greg Lee, Karl Urban, Charles Mesure, etc. As much as I adore the ladies who are invited, they’re not enough for me to fork over money. I gave enough in the heady days of convention going. Now it’s time to let go. Right?


sweeten up that smile

poem #1
maybe you will stay
realize this could be yours
if you say the words

poem #2
when you look beyond this moment
if perhaps you stop
near the place we once met
chance will show you a memory
hidden in the cool shadows
every breath a reminder
sweet without
the fallen tears of yesterday
ever warm and bright
regret the eventual end

poem #3
too much left unsaid
the secret awaits release
simmering beneath

poem #4
sweeten up that smile
laugh loud from deep in your heart
make this moment count

poem #5
play along with me
hold my hand
in yours
leave no doubt
it’s real
play along with me

poem #6
the shadows beckon
ready to lock these secrets
better left unsaid

Angelique Cabral & Ed Quinn on Bad Judge

We watched Bad Judge from the beginning (yah for Hulu!) so that we could get to Ed Quinn’s episode (which aired this week). It’s awesome to see Ed in something new. And still ever so very dashing. ;) The awesome Ed Quinn aside, the show is rather funny. Kate Walsh’s character is pretty cool. LOL

We watched Metro Manila last night. SAD SAD SAD movie. I wanted to turn it off at least twice while watching but we powered through to the end, which was SAD SAD SAD. I don’t often watch movies set in the Philippines but it seems like when I do see the Philippines in movies, it’s either rice farms or the dirty and gritty city. I did like trying not to read the subtitles but I also liked reading the translations because they were just not right sometimes. Oh, the gist of the meaning was there but the actual translations were a bit adjusted. Of course, my understanding of Tagalog isn’t as deep as it should be. There are plenty of words I do not understand in Tagalog. LOL But it’s the only other language where I don’t translate into English in my head, like I do with Spanish or Italian or French. (What little I know of those languages.)

Right now I’m watching the Jennifer Ehle/Colin Firth version of Pride and Prejudice. It’s not HD (why Amazon Prime, why?!) but it reminds me of when I watched it first VHS (yes, VHS), then DVD, and somewhere I have the blu-ray.

National Novel Writing Month is just around the corner and I’ve already got the story in my head. Truth be told, I’ve started writing scenes to get to know my characters but I’m writing so much that it’s going to end up being cheating when I actually get to start the story. Will I be able to get to 50,000 during November without using the words I’ve already written? I hope so!

one more of Ed, just because…