admit this truth

you keep saying
someday
but I know
there’s no way
you’ll ever
confess your heart
you’d rather
stay apart
than admit this truth
between me and you

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Sam Hunt… dreamy focus

Here’s a truth: I am way into Sam Hunt. I know, it’s probably been quite obvious. But it is so declared so that when my next Listworthy post goes up, you all aren’t surprised. ;) I’m letting it stew mostly because I need to prowl the internet for some suitable pictures to accompany the post. Love that part of it… I must say, mentioning/tagging Sam Hunt has turned me on to other new, up and coming country music artists. I like that! There are two I’ve followed so far that have caught my ear. And oddly enough, they’re two who’ve only either favorite my tweets or liked my instagram photos but do not follow me back. FOLLOW ME BACK! LOL

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Sully – Strike Back

Sully is still my number one fella. It’ll take A LOT to push him from that spot. But the other fellas are most welcome to try. ;)

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Sam again

Spring Break is over. School resumes on Monday BUT it’s a short week because of Easter. Or as we call it, “Spring Recess.” Off Good Friday and the day after Easter. Gotta love it and I do indeed. ;) I just can’t believe how fast this school year has gone. Time flies the older you get! Take note, kids.

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And I want to reply “That’s what she said…” But I won’t… ;)

It’s weird writing two stories at the same time. I can’t seem to just focus on one. I’m so close to finishing one of them but I linger. Why do I linger? I have no idea except I know with the one near its end I will need to go back and flesh out some things because I still don’t know basics like what my main female character does for a living. Maddening. And with the other story, I’m just wondering when I’m going to introduce more conflict. Need more conflict!

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my new All Blacks cap!

My first (and hopefully ONLY) snapback cap arrived this week! It’s my second piece of All Blacks gear, something I can wear no matter the weather. But ye gods, why did it have to be a snapback? I’m a bend the bill kind of cap wearing gal! Oh well. Must show my love for my rugby team. :D

from endless dreams

one look
one spark
this touch
so soft
one kiss
perfection
endless dreams
ever after
never to be
yet longing persists
for you
for us
for the promise
from one kiss
from endless dreams

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Sully – Strike Back

My story is coming along. My characters are developing interesting traits that I hadn’t at first envisioned. I like that. I’m working on the second installment. Maybe if I actually finish it, I’ll combine it with the first installment to make one novel (as opposed to two novellas). We shall see.

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Sam Hunt singing “Speakers”

I still haven’t burnt myself out on Sam Hunt. Not sure what’s going on but I just cannot stop listening to his music. Maybe it’s the story I’m writing or maybe his music is just that good. I have no idea. I joined a Facebook community and part of me LOVES all the updates of people seeing him live and such and then part of me is super envious because I don’t see a day in the near future when I’ll be able to see him perform in person. ::sigh:: I must be content with just listening to his music and watching videos on YouTube.

Cinderella – What a sweet movie! Gorgeous and nicely updated for modern sensibilities. It’s a lovely movie, if you like the Cinderella tale, and she has more spirit than I remember from the animation. Richard Madden is utterly DREAMY as the prince (and I giggled when he said his name was “Kit” because it reminded me of his Game of Thrones co-star Kit Harrington). I like him better with scruff but he was still quite handsome all clean shaven. The actress playing Ella was a beautiful combination of sweetness and strength. I’d definitely recommend it. Oh, and the Frozen short was SO CUTE. Yes, I was actually excited to watch it.

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cousins and me

Today my cousins came out to Brentwood and we walked the farmer’s market before having lunch. I always have such a great time just talking with them. We definitely need to get together more often. We had lunch and ended up just talking for a few hours. It was cool! We talked about all kinds of stuff, which always happens. :) It was great catching up with them.

I had a weird dream before waking today. I was on vacation or location with my friend Paula and I think I was Ed Quinn’s assistant or something because I had to take him and a couple of other people somewhere and Ed was inebriated but in a funny way. Then I was at a restaurant or bar and C. Thomas Howell was the server/bartender humming a Sam Hunt song and when he asked me for my order, I said, “Something with Sam Hunt in it” and he smiled at me and said he could get something for me. SO WEIRD.

It’s the middle of spring break for us out here. I have a long weekend then a short work week with a half day on Friday. Glorious! :D

Love with Grace (v.2)

Love with Grace (v. 2)

I don’t need to close my eyes
To see that smile on your face
You reach out to me
Such love with grace

I don’t need to dream
I’m back in this place
My longing ever fulfilled
Sharing love with grace

I’ve finally found my way
To this time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

When I open my eyes
To the morning’s crazy pace
I stop
And look your way
Seeing my love with grace

When I take a break from the day
The rush leaves without a trace
Once I hear your voice
My sweet love with grace

I’ve finally found my way
To this time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

You welcomed me back
In this time and space
You let me declare
My love with grace

I’ve finally found my way
To this time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

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Sam Hunt – “Leave the Night On”

The poem in this post is the second version of an earlier poem. It’s for the story I’m writing (“Love with Grace”). I hope it sounds like a love song because it is. LOL I’ve sort of ended “Love with Grace” but I’ve continued with the characters in a story I’m calling “Life with Grace.” I suppose I could just combine them later in an actual novel. We shall see how it goes. I’m enjoying the characters too much at the moment to let them go.

And I’m breaking my Sully as the first picture streak for Sam Hunt?! I do this mostly because the picture of Sully that I wanted to use was this:

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Sully as Damien in the US first season of Strike Back

Can’t start off with a Damien in bed shot, especially when my posts go to FB. ;) I feel like I’m neglecting my Sully fangirl duties with all this Sam Hunt stuff in my head. I know, it’s a silly notion since it’s not as if the fellas notice. lol But I do keep watching Strike Back to feed my screencapping needs.

I will say that Sam Hunt is awesome inspiration for my current story. His music is certainly helping me in the feel for my characters. I just keep listening to him and I often wake up with one of his songs in my head. On Friday morning, before I even got out of bed, I checked my phone and saw that his new video was out so I posted it to twitter and facebook. This is either a sign of my devotion or obsession. ;) And I’m obviously starting to do screencaps of his videos, which I thought I wasn’t going to do but it’s part of my M.O. in fangirl love, so there it is. Threshold be damned!

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my tumblr showing evidence in the changes of my fangirling…

And on a personal note (not that the above wasn’t personal), unsettling things have been happening in my family (no, not home life) and I am considering writing it and posting it someday. Sometimes you want to keep certain things to yourself because it seems that it should be private. And then other times, you just want to let it out into the world to give it less power over your soul.

Sometimes I wonder if I post only my creative process and fellas to distract myself from the “real life” stuff. Maybe so. But it’s there even if I don’t talk about it here…

m4s0n501

I belong to you

take my hand
take my heart
every beat
belongs to you

when I smile
when I laugh
every note
belongs to you

hold me close
hold me tight
in your arms
I belong to you

take my hand
when I smile
hold me close
I belong to you

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Sully, of course – Strike Back

At the moment, as I write, I’ve got my Sam Hunt mix in my ear. “Leave the Night On” just ended and now a live version of “Ex to See” is starting. He just said “intimate” and it makes me smile a little. Love love love his accent. It was one of the sorority performances. Lucky chicks!

So every time I post anything Sam Hunt on twitter or Instagram, I get liked and faved by people who are obviously looking for his hashtag. It’s interesting especially on twitter because I get faved a lot by up and coming country music artists with a few of them even following me. Are they trying to build an audience for themselves? I’m actually impressed by their tactics. There’s one artist who CONSTANTLY faves my tweets but doesn’t follow me. I think if he actually clicked that follow button, I’d follow him back. I did follow him on Instagram but I’m not pulling the trigger at twitter until he follows me. DUDE, just FOLLOW ME! Still, I do appreciate the faves. Those make me smile. ;)

I’ve started writing the sexy bits for Love with Grace. It’s weird to have written the third sexy bit before the first and second ones. Oh well, one does not need to always write in a linear fashion. I might be ending the other story I stopped writing to start writing Love with Grace. I don’t have a title for that one. It’s currently just called the names of the characters.

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Philip Winchester – Strike Back

Aleks Paunovic made me laugh today on twitter. I tweeted and then he replied:

This is why I love the guy! :) He’s a sweetheart. I hope I get to meet him someday because man, he’s a big guy and looks like he’d give great hugs! One day, someday. If he ever appears nearby, I am going to make the effort. Oh, and how small would I look next to him in a picture? I’d look TINY. I love looking tiny next to the fellas. ;)

And I wish I could talk about the stuff happening in “real life.” It’s disturbing, disheartening, and just plain sad. But it makes me grateful for having a loving husband, a great sister, good cousins, and awesome friends.

Tonight we spring forward. Probably the only thing I don’t like about springtime…

love with grace

Love with Grace

When I close my eyes
I see the smile on your face
And wonder
How could I walk away
From love with grace

When I dream at nightfall
I’m back in this place
Filled up with such yearning
Needing love with grace

I know I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

When I open my eyes
To the morning’s crazy pace
I stop
Just for a moment
Waiting for love with grace

When I take a break from the day
I want to leave without a trace
Find my way back to you
My sweet love with grace

I know I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

But will you take me back
In that time and space
Will you let me declare
My love with grace

I’ll find my way
To that time and space
Where I left my heart
In love with grace

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Strike Back – Sully

I’ve been slacking on my Strike Back re-watching of US season one. I want to do my screencaps of that season and then I will have done all three US seasons! Of course, I’m the only one who’s been enjoying the screencaps besides the random ones I post publicly. Am I really selfish that way? LOL

The above poem belongs to the latest story I’m writing (not so coincidentally called Love with Grace). It’s really supposed to be a song (does it read like it could be a song?) but as I am not a musician, I can only do the lyrics part of it. I rarely name my poems but I did name this one because it is a song. ;)

My Listworthy Ed Quinn post has gotten some love this week. It was Ed’s birthday this week (the 26th) and as a little reminder, I re-posted the link and he consequently re-tweeted it and it also appeared on his Facebook page. I got a super sweet compliment about it and even though it’s two years old, it’s nice to know it still reads well enough. :) Whew!

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opened Spotify just to listen to Sam Hunt

I’ve been listening to Sam Hunt on repeat-shuffle. It’s borderline disturbing how much I’m listening to him but I’m all about embracing the crazy at the moment. Besides, it’s helping with the aforementioned story, Love with Grace. ;) I keep mentioning Sam on twitter and now a bit more on Facebook. When I first started on twitter, I got follows from up and coming country artists. I followed back a few. And now I’m getting likes on instagram for the couple of Sam related pics I’ve posted… I keep hoping for one like or RT or even a reply from him on twitter but so far nothing. And I know I’m foolish for wanting that second of attention but I’ve been previously SPOILED by other folks on twitter, so this is a new feeling. I know I need to dial it down because heaven forbid I get blocked (yes, I’m still bitter about being blocked from that one twitter account). But I really do enjoy Sam Hunt’s music and I do think it’s that good. He’s a perfect blend of country, R&B, and pop for someone like me because even though he is a bit younger, I feel like I get what he’s doing with his music and I definitely appreciate it. He has the country comfort, the sexy R&B swagger, and the sassy pop in his sound and I LOVE IT. It’s just weird to start on a new artist right when he’s in the middle of his rise. I like catching them right before they hit it big. LOL I know, I’m weird.

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Mr. Leonard Nimoy’s last tweet

I am still quite affected by Mr. Nimoy’s passing. His last words on twitter are almost a comfort. Did he know his last moments were upon him? Was this his last way of comfort for us?

LLAP

how do you explain

how do you explain
the breath
the ember
the spark
the feeling
of belonging
to this
how do you explain
the impact
the joy
the gratitude
while knowing
there are no words

Leonard Nimoy died today. When I read the news, I wanted to cry. But now I’ve held the tears in too long and they merely choke me a bit while my heart is heavy.

There are better words out there than anything I can even try at the moment. Find them because they are all true. As a Star Trek fan, I can only ever be grateful for Mr. Spock and thereby the man who portrayed him.

Journey well to the next, Mr. Nimoy. May we all be so lucky to Live Long and Prosper as you did…

drift in this

needing this
feeling this
being this
so overwhelmed
leave me
lost in this
let me
drown in this
let me
drift in this
ever willingly

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Sully, Strike Back

It’s awesome when you’re near the end of writing one story and two more stories decide they want to start NOW. What the heck?! But I’m no complaining. I like that I’m not wondering what to write next. :)

Tonight is the Academy Awards and I’m NOT watching it. Not protesting or anything, just don’t feel like it since hubby isn’t home. We usually watch together and make our picks but we totally forgot to do that this year. Oh well!

the music keeping time

when it’s your voice
when it’s your words
weaving a spell
I can’t escape
winding me up
so I can’t leave
when it’s the rise
when it’s the fall
the music keeping time
embracing me
trapping me
so I won’t leave
when it’s a dream
when it’s a fire
promising just the moment
I can’t refuse
seducing me
so I don’t leave


Sully – Strike Back

So I’ve been mostly only playing Sam Hunt’s MONTEVALLO these couple of days. I think it’s safe to say I’m just a tiny bit obsessed at this point. I can’t even really tell if I’ve “discovered” the album at the right time or if it’s actually good. I have no way to gauge it because my musical tastes are quite eclectic. My reaction to the music is best described as visceral. It’s his voice, it’s the words, it’s the beat of the music. I love when music pulls from deep inside and makes you feel.

My story is at the point where I should probably end it but I’m liking my characters too much at the moment. LOL I need to wind it down and then go back and do some revising. Someday? And I already have my next story waiting in the wings! Maybe one day all this writing will be released for others to enjoy. ;)